It’s been such an endless agony of finding a real love. Everyday praying and hoping for a love to bloomed. I lay my cards just to find for a special someone to spend my life with.
28 years of searching and waiting for someone to love and to be loved. Everyone might ask if I been in loved or did someone shared already his life with me. Yes, I've been in so many failed relationships. I did try to work things out but they always leave me hanging until they fade. I've learn that in a relationship in order for this to work and to last is that Love sometimes is not only giving, but rather it should be give and take. Both parties should accept their faults and weakness. I came to a point that I got afraid of fighting and longing for someone to be with. I’ am afraid of hurt and a love to fade.Brave soul they may say but still weak person in terms of writing my own love story. I' am afraid because with in terms of the word "LOVE" I' am still innocent though I know I been there and done that. Innocent in such away, that all I want is to be happy and be contented. Even this might cause too much pain. All I know that time is better for me to give love rather that receiving. But, giving to much love caused too much burden to carry in my heart until finally I learned to be numb. Numb in terms of giving space to my heart to regain back what I've lost. So that in time that I' am already ready to love again I have a space for myself and for the new love to unfold.
I've been contented with my life. Taking time for myself and enjoying my life that I've lost. I gained my respect for myself back. I was just patiently waiting for God to write my own love story. One day read in one inspirational book it says that, if you would like to have a long lasting relationship you just have to give our Lord your pen and paper and allow him to write your own love story. Never ask nor demand you just have to wait until he finally gives an introduction of your story. One line that melt my heart the most as he says, “Son, I was tapping your shoulder that time telling you that you will just be hurt if you will be accepting Satan in your life. But you never listen until you finally get hurt and almost give up. I was so sad because to choose to be with Satan rather me. You always think that I never listen to all your prayers but Son, I’ am always listening to you, its just that when I finally want to talk to you even just one minute of you busy day you never even give me a time. It seems that the 5 senses that I gave you, finally close it for me. But even you leave me I’ am always there for you. The day when Satan left you I sent an angel to guide you in your loneliness. I sent that angel to be with you up until you finally get over with the pain”. A teardrops fall down my eyes, the story was a slap on my face. Realizing that put God first in everything you do allow him to handle your life.
One day I was talking to God, silently praying. Until finally a great love story was about to unfold. God has finally written my own love story. My prayers have been answered. 27 years of searching for a mature love. God had found love to bloom. I was to thankful because it is worth the wait and I promise him that I will take care of this love that he gave me.
I found the love on a most unexpected time and day.
